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Self worth
Last year I had a job interview for the first time in many years and was struck by this realisation: I don’t believe in myself anymore. In my darker times I think of myself as a loser! The one who never made anything of herself.
I don’t know how this happened. But I do know it goes hand in hand with being a “housewife” (for want of better word). I shouldn’t feel like this. I have a loving and encouraging husband. My children love me and depend on me.
It is so important to me that as my children grow and develop they have the belief that they can reach great heights and nothing within reason is out of reach. Am I conveying that to them when my own self worth has dwindled to next to nothing?
When I was performing I sang to rooms of people on a regular basis. I wasn’t phased. I knew I was good. People liked to hear me sing. It was a great feeling.
Now I find that I’m constantly trying but getting nowhere – I guess that I feel I no longer have anything to offer. I’m naturally a creative person and find it difficult that I’m unable to make a living from that creativity – I have that silly feeling that money = success.
I’m not sure why I’m writing this. Letting off steam helps a little. And I would love to hear from anyone who finds themselves in the same situation or has been through it. I hope it doesn’t sound like a “will someone please feel sorry for me?” post – that isn’t my intention.
Thanks for listening š
New fabric in the shop!
Miniatures!
A lovely memory from my childhood is my Dad finding an old dollhouse that had belonged to one of his sisters in an old unused shed on the farm. He cleaned and painted it for me and I thought it was the most wonderful thing on earth – 2 storey and the front of the house opened and closed with a little latch. When we left the farm almost everything got sold and I think my dollhouse was among the things that went.
A little search on Etsy lead me to these wonderful discoveries:
Mixed Berry Pie in 1/6th scale by puttering
Alaska Red Clay Miniatures by FunkydevazVintage
Fairy Ring from WarmCountryMeadows
Springtime miniature dollhouse bedspread by Pugcentric
Yum Cha BBQ Pork Bun in Steam Basket 1/12th scale from luluminiatures
Handmade Miniature wooden chair by ShopHotHouse
Miniature Pet 1/12th scale by firbreheart
What do you think? Aren’t miniatures just awesome?!
Been painting
Silk ribbon flower tutorial
I’m featured!
My Creative Space
It’s impossible…
Progress
Better?
Actually, I really enjoyed cleaning up my sewing space. I came across projects and ideas I had forgotten and feel I can now focus on what I need to do next.